there's....something on the wing...some....thing

An idea: Six things I wish I'd never done.

You know, if wishing I’d never done those six things helped in some way, this might be worth it. But it’s not.

Well god damn, aren't I in such a charming mood tonight?

Suppose I could list six of the most influential dogs in my life.

1. Kuzin. Because he ran like a stubborn SOB, but that dog would drive through hell and back without making a poor choice. He allowed me to realize that I COULD train dogs well enough to beat the shit outta anyone.

2. Fox

3. Freddie

4. Keytone. Because they were the original "the girls" for an entire year together alone. I can't say they started it all, because Kuzin started it all, but they started everything I have now.

5. Heini. Because this season wouldn't have happened without her. God damn. When Freddie quit that day, I actually cried. Heini took over from there on out and made everything okay.

6. The Pretty. Because he's everything a monster should be. Because I'm more proud of what I've done with him than anything else I ever have.



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This is the current ability of my brain to function. I'm tired and I'm never a pleasant tired.

Must check to see if Busy is in heat. Must learn subtraction to see how many months ago November was. Must call Tim to see if he'll take her in the near future.

Must check to see if Rachel is anywhere near coming into heat. Fuck math. Must decide if I even want to breed her yet. Must say no to Rachel puppy. Fuck.

Must figure out what the hell is wrong with Connor's feet. Must might maybe require medication. Must find and learn addition to see if I can afford. Must afford. Fuck.

Must get rabbies shot for Fred and Keytone. More math. More money. More fucking.

Must stop eating fresh for lunch to save $12 a week. Must stop calling Subway, "eating fresh." Just realized I did math. Fuck.

Must put weight on Petunia. Must not make it sound as dire as a "must". Must buy different wormer to see if that helps. Must buy thing. Fuck.

Must get Elsie into shape. Must join dog park and Air Dog club because I really fucking want to. Must involve money, I'm sure. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKK.

Yep. My current mood is just peachy. Fuck money and fuck math.